Sometimes I wonder that I won’t make it in life. That I won’t be able to do what I’ve always wanted to do in my lifetime. That I’ll be a failure… Right off the bat that statement ensures I am far from being an optimist. I know everyone wonders about what their lives could be like if they don’t make much of themselves. I’ve always been hard on myself. Probably more so than others. I suppose I refer to myself as a reformed perfectionist. When I was younger I worked hard, ensuring no academic flaws… well, tried to be a flawless academic for the most part to make up for the large flaws regarding subjects that I’ve had a long and tiresome battle with. I wanted to please people. I did whatever I could to please people. But I’ve given up on that front. I’ve learned the only person you should worry about pleasing is yourself. Because no one else will appreciate or give a single fuck about what you’ve done for them, or try do for them. The funny thing is, while I’ve forced myself to believe that I don’t care anymore, I still do. I beat myself up about my shortcomings all the time. I over-think. Over-analyze. Worry myself sick. Constantly compare myself to others that I think are better off than I am. People that I think have more promising futures than I do. People that I think are smarter than I am, most of all. I try to focus on the positives, but the negatives override them.
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You’ll probably never understand what it means to be used, since you so casually manipulate and mentally abuse. You take without thought and just assume everything will be fine. You don’t understand what it means to truly respect a girl for who she is, and instead see what you can get from her until you grow bored and unsatisfied. You give her false hope and false affections all in your plan to get what you want until you move on to someone else and repeat the cycle, you psychopathic snake. You’re a fake. Underneath your charming, confident exterior lies a selfish, shallow, egotistical, self-important, careless little boy. I am astonished if you are capable of any close, meaningful relationships with people. You seem to only focus and care more about having as many superficial, empty friendships as you can instead of forming meaningful bonds. Good luck and all the best. You’re as trivial as they come.
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I’m addicted to seaweed. Why have I been so stubborn by refusing to try it in the past?? They’re better than chips. Nom.
NOMS
Almond butter is delicious. And it is absolutely scrumptious on toast with apple slices on top (my breakfast this morning yum).
In my opinion, it trumps peanut butter.
